for no reason, i went to log in to bbdc's website for the first time since i failed my 2nd test.. just did a quick check on the earliest test date and it was on the 25th of june. contemplated really hard if i could afford to take the test and passing whether i had enough time and money to go for practice. the answer: i do not have enough!

haha.. kinda lame, i can afford to book the lessons and the test, but i pretty much have to survive on air till i get my first army allowance, and also, i wouldnt have enough money to top up my ezlink, neither would i have money to pay my next month's bills and insurance. on top of that, whether i can pass is a totally different question.

let's just say that i've lost my balls, and i dont dare to take the gamble. no doubt, it would be better to take the test before i go into army cuz by that time it should be quite a hassle.. i dont see any urgency for the licence anymore, since i cant afford to buy a bike anyway. haha. lame.

ran for the first time in 2 weeks, and there are only 3 letters to describe my level of fitnes.. CMI..
i really shouldn't take breaks cuz everytime i start running again, it's just much more difficult that consistenly running..

mummy's birthday is coming soon and i dont know what i can do about it! shittified.